Is my excuse really my reason?

excuse or reason

It was somewhere between three months and seven and a half months into Christiana’s short, but dramatic life that I remember dully listening to another mom gushing about her daughter. Words meant to be encouraging landed like slaps to my heart. “We just had a lot of faith,” she said. “We prayed, and prayed, and our daughter made it home with no ventilator, and is so much better than they ever thought she would be. You just have to have faith.” I remember smiling politely and walking away. Have faith echoed from my footsteps down the hospital hall. It chuckled mirthlessly in the silent elevator. It jeered at me from the back seat of the car driving home. We had faith. We prayed. And then we picked our in home nursing care, installed electrical outlets for a ventilator, learned to change a trach, and memorized emergency procedures for keeping a baby … Continue reading

Do what you do know how to do

Excuses are handy little things aren’t they? They give us the way out. All the justification we need for dashed dreams and un-realized goals can be summed up in simple sentences like…”Well someday, but I just don’t have time.”…”I’d love to, but I don’t have the money.”…”I wish I could, but I’m not educated enough.”…”I want to, but I’m not talented enough.”…I could go on for a good while more with examples, I’m really quite skilled at the art of excuse making! You know what I realized about excuses? More often than I’d care to admit, my excuses are just sheer laziness wrapped up in a package of victimized self pity. I’m afraid there isn’t much very pretty about that! I don’t believe for a second that an all powerful God created me to be rendered helpless and useless by the slightest obstruction in my path. I also don’t think … Continue reading